I got my feelings hurt yesterday… didn’t even see it coming…

I had to return a super cute outfit

(that looked not so cute on me when I got home… Uggg always so disappointing! lol)

As I walked up to the counter, the cashier, picked up a box and said very sternly… ” I’ll be with you in a minute…”  No smile, no Hello… Her abruptness just super caught me off guard, like I was in the principal’s office… and I was going to be in HUGE trouble… LOL

She didn’t wait for me to respond, she just walked to the back..

 As I stood at the counter, for what seemed like forever!  HAHA   (probably like 1 min..)

I could feel myself getting upset..

I wasn’t mad… I was just confused..

It was more like …

“Wow! She super hates me! ” LOL

When she came back, she grabbed the receipt from my hand… didn’t look at me, didn’t say anything…

I was trying waaayyyy to hard to not get upset… talking myself down, but it was too late…

She took my bag, and pulled the jumper out  (It really  was super cute… felt disappointed again! Haha)

She  couldn’t find the tag to beep it with her gun thingy…

Now she was really mad… for sure!

 As she started flinging the “super cute”  jumper around the counter, and breathing all  crazy…  …I remembered there wasn’t a tag on it when I checked out,

and said to her…  “Oh, yeah, there isn’t a tag, the girl who rung it up used the inside label ..sorry about that :) “

It was just all bad…

After a few minutes of her being more frustrated, she figured it out and finished my return…

She handed me the receipt back…

Didn’t say a word…

So I didn’t…

It was an awkward stare down…   Who was going to say “Thank you”  first…

LOL

I didn’t…

She didn’t…

I started to walk away… but like I said… it was too late…. I just couldn’t process why she was so angry…

I turned around and said…

“Not sure what I did to cause you to be so mean… but whatever it was, I’m sorry…”

She walked to the edge of the counter rather quickly and yelled..

“WHAT DID I DO!”

Not like a question… but like a statement…

I felt my eyes tear up…

I just said… “Really…?”

And walked away…

I walked around the store for a minute.. looking at clothes… but I couldn’t calm my heart down…

As I walked to my car, I sensed  a familiar sweet, calm touch…  “It wasn’t you, Lisa…”

I could feel my heart  take refuge…

It wasn’t me at all.

She was not happy about something…

I don’t know how she would have reacted if I would have been more aware of her being upset, and maybe even just  asking her if she was ok.. just anything to reach out to her, but I was just taken completely off guard…

I was just trying to return something, and it was all about me! LOL

As I sat in my car, and took a minute to process, I felt bad…

I felt bad for her…

I felt bad for not being more caring.

So…

Today I will take note of what happened yesterday, and I will pray for her tender heart to be okay…

And I am reminded, it is better for my soul to be kind… patient and giving then right..

Live in Love,

Lisa

“For what good will it do someone if he gains the whole world and forfeits his soul?”

Matthew 16:26

 Being kind is waaayyy better :)

“…brothers and sisters, take note of this; everyone should be quick to listen, slow to speak and slow to become angry because human anger does not produce the righteousness that God desires..”

James 1:19-20

With all of my heart I want to be beautiful in God’s eyes…

To walk through my day with the constant knowledge that He is near…

I am a people pleaser by nature… I want to love and be loved.

I see injustice, and cruelty so very plainly…

It hurts…

For sure this world can be cruel… Pitting our hearts and thoughts up against one another.

For me to focus on the one thing…The only thing that I can control ..

My relationship with my Heavenly Father.

As I walk through my day, my heart’s desire is to be pleasing, and beautiful before my Heavenly Father.

This heart posture relieves so much stress…

I know I am going to be challenged maybe in a million ways as I interact with people in my day…

My husband, kids, neighbors, the folks at walmart,or my grocery store (I seem to forget to get something almost every day! loll)  The people I have to deal with on the phone over health insurance issues… LOTS of issues! ugggg…. :)

It never ends…

I have a choice though…

I choose to be careful…To be sensitive…

The way I choose to react may be the only kindness someone has been shown for a long time…

To be loving and compassionate…

Hopeful and considerate always bring me so much joy…

Joy that my Heavenly Father smiles brightly when I surrender my anger, or frustration and remember that I am His first…

I am a reflection of His goodness to whoever I come in contact with…

That Is our purpose…

That is my passion…

Today I am going to cherish understanding…

Live in Love,

Lisa

“To acquire wisdom is to love oneself, people who cherish understanding will prosper.”

Proverbs 19:8-9

When my heart, and  my days seem to feel out of control..

People or situations are turning my thoughts from hope to fear…

I sense Your warning, Oh Lord, it’s time for me to come near…

It’s time to pause..

It’s time to reflect on You, Oh Lord, and the beauty that You are…

Dear Heavenly Father,

I desire You…..Above all things I desire You…

Your heart of love,  Your arms of security…

Your eyes of purity and grace.

I come before You this new morning.. I need  Your calmness… Your  wholeness.

Father, I seek cleansing from this world’s thinking..

Wash me in Your goodness, Oh Lord, and cleanse me with Your grace…

I want to be a better person from the depths of my soul… To see Your hand of mercy wherever I go…

Please help those who are struggling with anger and despair…

May we help each other to see love more clearly…

May our words be kind…

May our hearts be pure…

Use our lives for good, Dear Lord…

Use our lives for good..

In Jesus Name,

I pray,

Amen

Live in Love,

Lisa

“Lord, You are mine!  With all my heart I want Your blessings.

Be merciful just as You promised.

I pondered the direction of my life and I turned to follow Your statues..”

Psalm 119: 57-59

“Search me, Oh God, and know my heart; try me, and know my thoughts: and see if there be any wicked way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting…”

Psalm 139:24

Struggling over hurts…

Judging others motives…

Finding fault wherever we go…

Oh Lord,

Search my heart and open the flood gates of forgiveness, hope and healing….

Turn my eyes away from my circumstance and into Your glorious gaze…

To be one with You in word and deed is my heart’s desire…

To love freely

To give generously

To seek Your heart ferociously…

These are the things that  bring me life…

How I praise You, Oh Lord, for such goodness…

Your Spirit sets me free…

Your kindness releases my heart, and Your forgiveness gives me wings.

 Help me to walk in Your steps…

Kindness matters…

Love matters..

You matter…

Live in Love,

Lisa

“Gentle words bring life and health; a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit…”

Proverbs 15:4

Cleanse me, Oh Lord  that others will see the beauty of Your gentleness and hope…:)

Oh, Lord, I want to see You…

I want to feel Your hand in mine…

I want to know that You are near…

Please soften my heart…

Wash away the calcified places that keep my heart numb to Your touch…

Please soften the rough edges…and the hard places… for they make it hard to let Your love in….

Oh Lord, more of You and way less of me…

How I praise You for Your gentleness… for Your breath that gently blows over my heart with such care and goodness…

Thank You for Your faithfulness…

Thank You for Your grace…

Today, I chose to be a mirror of Your beauty…

Please help me to be aware of my words…

my thoughts…

I want to be pleasing unto You…

Today. Oh Lord. I chose to open my mouth wide that You would fill me with good things…

In Jesus Name,

I pray,

Amen

Live in Love,

Lisa

“For it was I, the Lord your God, who rescued you from the land of Egypt. Open your mouth wide, and I will fill it with good things…”

Psalm 81:10

Cheers to being the queen… or… king of rad!

Heavenly Father, I love You.  Thank You for Your kindness and grace.  Hope and peace. Today  am thankful for each breat.  Each heartbeat.  Today I will live in Your amazing light.  Thank You for all the love You pour into our lives…

Help me to keep my thoughts light… and my heart open…

In Jesus Name,

I pray,

Amen

Live in Love,

Lisa

“Worry weighs a person down; and encouraging word cheers a person up…”

Proverbs 12:25

You are loved.

You are awesome…

Have a happy day!

“The Lord is righteous in everything He does; He is filled with kindness.  The Lord is close to all who call on Him.”

Psalm 145:17-18

I call on You, Dear Heavenly Father, I cry out Your name..

Please lead, and guide me to walk in Your ways…

May Your loving kindness soak deep within my soul… radiating peace, hope and goodness wherever I go..

Thank You for being so near…

Thank You for never letting me go..

Thank You for guiding me…

Thank You for Your righteousness…

Thank You that I don’t have to trust in myself..

In Jesus Name, I pray,

Amen

Live in Love,

Lisa

Happy Sunday friends,

Dear Heavenly Father, praying over our hearts that we would be still and steadfastly focused on You and Your loving kindness… Help us to shine Your gentleness and grace… hope and peace.. Especially during these buys holiday days…

Remind me, Oh Lord, how just one touch of Your tenderness changes everything…

In Jesus Name, I pray,

Amen

Live in Love,

Lisa

Dear Heavenly Father, Thank You for Your loving kindness…

How I need You….

I come before You on bended knee… Seeking Your cleansing power,

mercies, and grace…

Love is the overflow of who You are…

“Love is patient,  love is kind, it does not envy, it does not boast.  It is not proud. 

It is not rude.  It is not self seeking.  It is not easily angered.  It keeps no records of wrongs..

Love does not delight in evil, but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always preservers…”

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Cleanse me, Oh Lord, of the worries of today.. Draw me into the light of what is true…

You are patient… May my heart be at peace..

You are kind… May Your kindness flow through my heart, and into my life…

Lord, I ask for Your cleansing truth, that I would not envy, but instead look deep within: remembering everyone is fighting a hard battle…For there is no room for jealousy, greed or anger…

Help me to extend Your arms of  comfort and grace…

You do not delight in our evil ways..

quiet the opposite…

You rejoice when we do what is good, and right…

Thank You that You do not keep a record of my wrongs…

You always protect my heart,

Fill me with hope,

Give me strength to preserve,

How I seek to draw others into Your loving presence…

Please, Oh Lord, Fill me with faith, and cover my heart with all that You are…

How I praise Your Holy Name,

In Jesus Name,

Amen

Live in Love,

Lisa

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